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The Big Four-Oh!
By Gooch | January 9, 2019
When I turned 30, if someone had told me that my 30s would be harder than my 20s, I would have listened but shrugged it off.
As they say: hindsight is 20/20.
I came into 30 pretty good, but nervous. I already knew I would be leaving the old house. Outside of that everything was mostly good. The next decade has brought some good, a good deal of bad, and some ultimately life-changing events.
My 30s have given me: living on my own, a Yankees World Series Championship, breakups, road trips, obliviousness, a goddaughter, screw-ups, finding new friends, finding new interests, unemployment, finding love, a kickass cruise, flying for the first time in years, unexpected loss, hasty decisions, a mid-life crisis, friendships lost, a surprise eviction, and a surprise breakup. (I’m sure I’m missing things).
One major issue that I had to learn to take care of was my mental health. I didn’t know what a toll unemployment would take on me. And while getting a job helped in that regard, it wasn’t until a few years later, that a mid-life crisis popped up and led to major issues. It took prodding and even an ultimatum to lead me back into taking care of it. Along the way, it led to the disappearance of an almost lifetime’s worth of held in anger at my father.
Did I have regrets? Absolutely. I regret not opening my mouth and asking for help from a certain someone. Instead I cocooned myself and lost something good. I regret a hasty decision that may have brought on one of the two major down periods in my life. I regret not opening my mouth (again) about said hasty decision. I regret not being a good friend, not communicating and losing a friendship. I’m working on being a better friend and am lucky that the friendship I lost is being rebuilt.
I thank all of you, whether you’re family and have been around for ages, my peoples who have been with me since high school and college, or the recent additions to my life. You have all made my life worth it.
I come into 40 wiser than I was at 30, which is to be expected. I don’t know what to expect of the next 10 years, but I’m looking forward to them.
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